Jan. 11th, 2013

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so much for simple layout-- the stars!

So I don't know what to put here right now, since I'm just gonna hope that I can make some lovely blogging friends! Tumblr is just, become more of a burden to me than not and that makes me sad since I did enjoy it a lot. I just want a place where I can feel less threatened by fandoms and fanart, fan fan fan fan....people who appreciate something because it's drawn by a somebody, not a nobody.

I know i'll never find that place, and i'll surely just be a lost cause all my life in that department, but on this journey, I'd like to at least unleash all my feelings somewhere safe. Blogging is something I really really really enjoy and spent a lot of time doing when I was very lonely and very sad so even if it brings back bad memories, knowing that I could share my long winded troubles with others helped me and allowed me to kind of, discover, I don't need other people's recognition. That I can do things on my own, and in time, people will notice and whatever happens happens.

babble babble it is very late... well late for me since I got about 5 hours of sleep last night.

I'll write something nicer tomorrow! 

Buona notte!
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I didn't really do much today.

Practiced Italian... Painted my nails... Made bubble tea.

I kind of forget how dull things can get around here. Not that my house or life is really dull, it's not! I just, I don't know. Not a lot happens here unless I've got money and transportation. I like to make excuses for why my days are boring. I can see New York City from my bedroom and yet I wake up every morning and just prefer the coziness of my bed rather than getting up and doing something.

I've got a list of things I should really be drawing, but I'm not really in the mood to draw. I'll draw something tonight, I really should. My teacher said we should be drawing 4-6 hours a day. In the last 3 I've drawn about zero.

My mom said I might go get my hair cut this weekend! I'll be dying it red again tomorrow so that's exciting!

Other than that, tonight is a relaxed night doodling, sitting with my kitties and listening to top indie so I can get some new songs on my playlist.